“And He said unto me, my grace is sufficient for thee for my strength is made perfect in weakness, most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

I have and am struggling to keep my eyes on the Lord.

My husband will be going to trial February 9Th and I am scared.

Our lawyer has made very clear to us the corruption that exists within the prosecutions office. They are pushing forward to trial while lacking the evidence, and they know it. They won't drop it, which is what they're supposed to do if they don't have it.

So...

Everyday is just making it through. Every night is sleepless and full of disturbing dreams and gripping fear. Many days I'm so totally exhausted that my eyelids hurt.

Please pray for us - whatever you feel so inclined to would be appreciated, thank you.

As I walk, I keep my eyes on you my Lord !



As the unknown draws near, I trust you.



When I faint, you bring me to this place.



In the blackness of night, you guard me.



When I'm sinking, only you are my savior !



When I'm lost, you always find me.



Your love never falters, your love is perfect in every way !



I will never take my eyes off of you again... My Lord - my King !

If we are to flourish
If we are to grow into wholeness
We must bloom where ever we are planted

I know that my Lord loves me.

I know that everything He does is so that I may be transformed into His image.

So that I may be freed from myself !

My Lord has stripped me, like someone stripping wood removing every piece of old varnish and sanding down any blemishes. So that the new varnish can compliment and become part of the wood perfectly !

2008 was the most absolutely life changing year of my life.

Absolutely everything has been tested with fire by my Lord.

But I feel that it's been necessary, I would not be the person I am right now if it weren't for the removal of imperfections, insecurities, resentment, anger, pride, and even sin that was entwined within the very core of who I was.

I'm still a mess and still so far from anything holy but I feel like I've made a few strides in the right direction - maybe !

So for this year, my only desire is peace of mind and wonderful absolute nothingness.

I think back a couple yrs. ago and I vaguely remember what it's like to wake up in the morning and have to worry about nothing but taking care of the house, bringing a smile to my husbands face, baking, and playing with my children - those are the days I pray my Lord will return to us.

Until then, I just take one day at a time - that's really all I can do !

Happy New Year to each and everyone of you, may it be richly blessed !