Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Isaiah{41:10}

What a great verse, if only I could apply it to my life. Or rather, if I could only believe it.

The circumstances in my life are just to bleak.

I have given up hope and dare not even think about finding it again.

Deborah

Sometimes...

It's just all crap !

I've been pretty grumpy, down, and just over all miserable.

Sometimes I feel like God's just "messing with me" or that life is just a big "screw you."

Deborah

So court was yesterday...

And...


It looks like my husbands case is going to a jury trial February 9, 2009 (unless the prosecution decides to make a reasonable deal.)

I'm bumbed because I just wanted this over and it's far from it.

Our lawyer said he can prolong a jury trial for 2-3 yrs.

It's wet and rainy, like my spirit today.

Although, I trust what my Father is doing - I just want it over already. Or rather, I want it over and my husband not having to do (more) jail time.

Deborah

For those of us with (multiple) children...

Sometimes my kids drive me CRAZY with their constant competing with each other !

Like today, my daughter said "Mommy why don't you put pictures of me on your blog."

I just sit sometimes and think, why can't everyone just get along.

I watch as the Lord is changing her and she's had some pretty big crosses in her life already.

What I see in her is a mirror image of what I go through and sometimes I don't act much different then a child. Especially when the Lord is focusing on a specific area to change.

But I'm so proud of my daughter because I'm watching the metamorphosis of growing not just physically but spiritually as well.

To watch what my husband and I have planted (Christ within her)and watered but the Lord has/is giving the increase.

To let her grow into who SHE is, is really neat as a parent. I imagine it's the same with our Father.

What's interesting (to me anyway) is that the same way there was the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost before the foundation of the world.
I see the reflection of that here on earth as our Lord (the foundation,) the Father of a household (the head,) and then his wife (spouse, helpmate, Mother.)

I love you my dear Rachael ! You make me happy and proud in everything you do, even as you're learning and growing up and changing - you make me proud !

Mommy/Deborah