It looks like my husband is going to have to stay were he's at until at least the end of May.

The judge had the case put to the grand jury, then indictment, then arraignment.

Please, please continue to pray my Sister's.

It's getting extremely hard for my children, especially my little boy who misses his Daddy so much. He's extremely sensitive and doesn't understand why Daddy's went from being here every day (until 5pm) to not here since April 2ND.

He wakes up usually every night crying, a lot of times he'll throw up.

Please pray that the Grace and peace of God surrounds him.

For me, it's as if time has slowed down to snail pace, everyday feels like an eternity. I hate waking up.

I've become a single Mother and it's SO hard. I really miss my husband.

I've learned so many things (already) along this road we're (as a family) on. I may share another time.

Some days I just feel like I'm going to calapse under the pressure of everything.

I've cleaned my house from top to bottom, it's immaculate. Now I have nothing else to do.

Please continue to bring this before the Lord in prayer that the blown up charges will be dropped and that the grand jury will be merciful through our amazingly gracious and forgiving Father.

I will never again take for granted a simple, peaceful day !
I will never again take for granted a hug or holding my husbands hand !
I will never again take for granted the absolute wonderfulness of family !
I will never again want for any material thing, because I would give everything I have to have my husband home !

All my heart desires is to be a complete family again...

Deborah

A broken Hallelujah





Cleaning out

Purity

Contentment

New beginnings

Love

Deborah

Another blow

Friday I was threatened with my children getting taken away from me.

Talk about your heart dropping to your feet !

Friday and Saturday I was in such fear that social services would show up, Satan stabbed at that fear ceaselessly. I experienced a depth of fear that I've never faced before. All I can say about that experience is, what a place to find yourself...

I can't even begin to describe the tormenting fear I had for two straight days, I hardly slept.

Today I felt a peace from within that guided me through that fear.

Thank you my dear Father !

Deborah

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen !

This saying (I'm not sure if it's in the Bible or not) came to me this morning as I was worrying.

I realized true faith is taking the prayers we pray and the things we hope for and truly trusting and giving them over to God. Because the evidence of things not seen (by us) is known by our Father.

So the Lord's teaching me how true faith isn't just a saying, a feeling, or even (just) believing. I think faith goes to another level (so to speak) that's very easy to over look.

It's hard to trust our Father has all the evidence and knows how to "play the cards."

We as humans want to try and put our spin on it, but if we do that can it truly be called faith ?

Deborah

While I sit here knowing that so many people are talking and gossiping about my husband and I.

I have received kindness and compassion that has moved me and touched me to the very depths of my spirit, from the most unlikely people.

I have shut myself off for years from receiving these things. Why, because I didn't want to open myself up to these things and be hurt again.

How wrong I was, how wrong I was for trying to be everything and need no one.

As my heart is breaking and tears are flooding my face, sometimes just to know that someone truly cares and loves you, for no reason other then we're all family.

We're all His family. Sometimes we just need a hand to hold.


Deborah

I beseech you, my dear sisters to join me in prayer.

My biggest fear has come into reality. I was always afraid of losing my husband. I have lost him, not to death but to jail as of last Wednesday.

The why I will not share, but I will say that the charges have been blown (way) up and as the newspaper read, could carry a 10 yr. sentence.

I with the most humble heart ask you all who read this to join me in prayer over this matter. I believe the power of prayer is one of the strongest (if not the strongest) force in this world.

Please pray that through the Lord the prosecutors and judges hearts are softened.
Please pray that he will not have to do extended jail time, probation is our hope.
Please pray that this is resolved quickly so that my children and I will not have to move.
Please pray for my children.

Thank you my dear and wonderful sisters !

Deborah

Everything works together for good for those that love the Lord !

What a wonderful verse from the Bible.

I find this verse comforting. Especially when life rages around me.


I laugh
I laugh not

I dream
I dream not


I live
I live not

I love
I love not

I am
I am not

I was
I was not

Deborah